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frantic

yes, frantic. that's the best way to describe this weekend. I tried to see everyone at once, and ended up seeing very few people at all. At the same time, I've hardly been home at all this weekend and I'm just as tired now, on Sunday night, as I was at the end of Friday. Friday, March 20th is a national holiday here in Japan, so I'm looking forward to a 3 day weekend. I've learned my lesson for sure. No matter how much I want and need to see my friends, I need time to myself. Yes, time to webcast and work on nekomimilisa.com..but also time just to relax.

It was noted that I took a 2-3 hour nap on Saturday. Indeed, I was (am am even slightly) still sick. Two weeks of this damn cold! And although I had plans to swim and grocery shop and cook,the only energy I could muster at 1pm was to go through my school materials. This turned out to be a terrible mistake because I spent my nap time tossing turning and having strange dreams about being unprepared and missing materials. Not restful.

I went out for dinner on Saturday at We in Ebisu. (Restaurant review to soon be posted at nl.com) It was pretty damn yum..at least the part I could taste at all. But 3 friends cancelled/ didnt reply after they said they would attend. So this shit also got in the way of my nap since, at the last minute, reservations had to be canceled and and and....I dont know why I bother to try and organize dinners or parties. It's not in my karma for them to work out. I should just be an attendee and forget it. In any case, reservations were all screwed up. then I was running late because of all the text messaging...and THEN I managed to get on the wrong train --something i never ever do! - and was 45 minutes late myself. You might imagine my mood was not good. The restaurant was nice and I finally relaxed.

Today I saw 007, but I never got to return home before to recover, so now - finally- im at home and racing around to do all the chores and leftover homework and site updates.

And tomorrow comes early and I have a lot of prep to handle before and after school.
The only good thing is that klatcher is slow as usual so while it's uploaded some pictures, I can type this and get my things together. Multitasking is taking away some of the uselessness I feel.

and the frantic. Because I feel like something has been accomplished. Arg.

Oh and I decided that I really like hanging out with Atsushi. I've been dating a few people, but he's the only one who's held my interest. What happened to Johnny? Im asking the same thing. Too busy to see me. Thats what happens when you cook shrimp linguine for a guy on Valentines day in Japan, I suppose. They keep sending you sweet messages about how much they miss you but how terribly busy they are. Lame. Finished. Anyways, Im reading this entry and can pretty much assume the truth - im scattered like the salt i dumped on the floor earlier while trying to navigate it from the bag to the shaker.

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r_lu
Mar. 17th, 2009 12:11 am (UTC)
Frantic
I know that feeling. All my days feel that way. I finally lose it and freak out. Cry. Then sleep. My problem is a lot of people call me, to help them when they're sick, lonely, want to bitch, whatever. I have my own stuff! My parents are here for another month, my son is Bipolar and takes a lot of time. On and on. I know people have it way worse than me, so I try to think about that when I'm bitching to myself. I miss my job at the Coast Guard. No one could get me there! LOL.
sakechick
Apr. 7th, 2009 02:13 am (UTC)
Re: Frantic
Hi r, I know how stressful you must be feeling. I know how alone you feel, like you're doing it all and helping everyone but yourself. But you should know you're not the only one, Im there many times. It's hard to pull through if you dont have a support system, and its not much comfort for some stranger to say I hope things get better, but I hope they do. I counsel Bipolar teens, so I know your pain. Good luck luv.
sakechick
Apr. 7th, 2009 02:11 am (UTC)
Hey
My friends keep discouraging me from teaching ESL. I was wondering if you could help me out? Im worried about going over there, failing, being poor all that stuff. This is kinda personal, but are you able to get by with the cost of living over there? I hear its ubber expensive.

I just know that I cant find a job here so I'm looking over seas.

Thanks. I know you're busy, so if you want, you can post on my live journal when ever. I haven't even applied yet.
r_lu
Apr. 7th, 2009 12:06 pm (UTC)
Thanks
Yeah, but then I say to myself, at least I have my health. I have a few friends that went or are going through Cancer. I look at my situation and tell myself to "shut up!" Things could be waaay worse. Things will get better. I was in a venting mood. Have to get it out somewhere without feeling judged.
sakechick
Apr. 15th, 2009 02:04 am (UTC)
Re: Thanks
Well I have had my fair share of health problems, even at my age! And things will get better, I mean once you hit bottom, no where else to go. But then again, if you're like me or have my luck, some one will dig a hole under ya. lol! You know my LJ name now, vent anytime you want. I think people like blogging and Live journalling so much because of what you said, they don't have to worry about being judged so long as the people don't know who they really are.
(Anonymous)
May. 1st, 2009 06:42 am (UTC)
Chopping Board
Lisa, I just read yout last twitter ("i dont have enough space in my kitchen so i end up using the chair and bed to put stuff on") and I remembered seeing Yuta a few days ago using one of those chopping/cutting boards that you can place on the kitchen sink to save space, like: http://www.trendir.com/archives/suter-kitchen-sink1.jpg or http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_EzzV56XgaoM/SM3OwPa17FI/AAAAAAAAABw/RGGYIZgRQpw/s400/MysticBean_CuttingBoard.jpg One of those would be very useful!, don't you think? :) Well, thanks for broadcasting and showing us beautiful Japan!
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