I cried all afternoon.
Stopped in at petland on my way over to the old place. picked up some mice for TIGA. the busses were working with me and i was over there and in the door in no time. the unfamiliar smell filled my nostrils as i squatted down with a bag full of paperwork in search of Ifrit's vaccination documents. I found them. I called to change the appointment to tomorrow for immediate surgery.
I walked into Jeramy's room and noticed the heat lamp was turned off yet again on TIGA's cage. I looked in on her. My heart stopped. Her head was tilted to the side in a way i was all too familiar with. this is how Malah-jara looked when I found her dead. No no no . it couldnt be. I ripped the guitar, and shirts and cologne off the top of the cage . No no no . I put ina hand to feel her. she hadnt been dead long, and i thought for some stupid reason i could bring her back to life. i picked her up and pet her, tried to warm her up. tears were running down my face as i imagined this animal in so desparate need of warmth dying in the cold that was my apartment. I called Stacy and vented for 15 minutes. I was sad at first, and then grew angry. How many times had i asked Jeramy to PLEASE leave the heat lamp on. Its an infrared lamp...dim nothing disturbing. He;s not paying electricity bills..how hard can it be? but noooo, every time id come over the lamp would be off. and now...
this on top of discovering 2 days ago that my fish was also dead because noone bothered to fill the water level an inch to keep the filter running...so it burned out and the fish suffocated. An noone had called ot tell me this. i had to discover it aafter christal and noelle skipped town.
I am so dissapointed in christal and Jeramy. Completely and totally. I thought these people had some sort of conscience when it came to pets, but i guess not. And Christal...i was letting her stay at my place out of the goodness of my heart and i specifically asked her to watch the water level and feed the fish!! Im taking Ifrit away and giving him the best life i possibly can. At least my lizards are alive. I am so upset, i cant even type this fast enough. the first wave of disbelief and hurt keeps rushing over me.
Jeramy called to apologize, but im so tired of his apologies. he always lets me down. guess thats why we're not together.