wrench in the chest.
he seems cheerier now, and I guess that is the issue. always the OTHER person's happpiness. anyways, im not THAT unhappy anymore. i have my reasons. its just the element bittersweetness on an unsuspecting mind of a girl checking her email. the heart thump when she sees the name.
i am wearing renzo's sweater today. fits pretty well. better now that it doesnt smell like him. i feel as if i have a trail behind me, like ox bones in the desert.