April 2nd, 2001

Whoops

For some reason it just didnt register that my metro card ran out yesterday (April fools!!)
so, i marched up the steps on the bus to discover that my fare was up. luckily, instead of having to search through my purse, the nice busdriver let me off. Karma was not so nice to the J who called me upseet and starving, cause his card ran out. I fell bad, so im going to run and get him dinner before heading over to Terri's.

I got a lot of concerned and advisial (is THAT a word?) replys on my last entry..and then i want able to follow up due to work and such. Yeah, sometimes im on the border tetter tottering on the edge of the cliff of the breakup..but it didnt happen. We got in a huge argument later that night based on totally differnet criteria and it wound up that i had to make a decision..and i decided to make it work for a little while longer.

i dont really know how i got off the J tangent..it was supposed to be a rant on how i feel trapped by nomal life...which somehow let to the J. and then i went off on that. sometimes i need to just get it together.

in any case, im all scrambled inside. not about the J, but about everything else. I got a nice email from the ex, which of course sent me in spins of happiness and utter "what-the hell am i feeling out of the blue-ness". Hes on tour and doing better than ever..he finally gets to tour Europe with his band, a lifelong dream. Im sooo proud of him. check out their site: www.brandtson.com
his name is Myk. Say hi to him for me.

OK, i have to go get the J some dinner.

ON CAM!!!

im on terri's cam
www.echonyc.com/~janedoe
i think thats her site. those who know, tell the others...
her cam is on there somewhere.
im being interviewed for her book. I look bluer than normal. i look like im all on blue, but no siree...its all black..yo know me.