June 4th, 2001

going through the motions

yeah, im all in a daze today. with the break up stress and the wierd sleeping schedule, im all in the zone. i have nothing to say to anybody, which is just as well, since i have a TON of work to do today on top of closing out the sales for the month.

i aquired a futon matress to throw on the floor, yesterday. glam! more college vibe again! my contract with the matress store lets me trade in my matress within 60 days for something else, so hopefully, ill have the extra 100$ to upgrade to a bed matress on the floor, instead of a futon matress. on the other hand, maybe ill just get a futon frame and call it good. id rather be up off the ground than have a rad mattress. im not picky.

so, thats being delivered today and i got jeramy to hang around for it. i mean, its not going to be delivered until between 3:30 and 7:30, but still, it cuts into his day off and he's not too happy about it. i completely understand, but we REALLY have to get separate rooms starting tonight. its dragging me down being together yet not. id rather hide in my own room. you know? and last night i caught him rubbing my butt.

must have own space.

so yeah, im looking forward to doing some redecorating tonight, unfortunately, i maxed out my credit cards again on the matress. grrr. i just want to pay those things off, but i always end up short. i KNOW that when things settle down, ill be ok, but they just dont settle.

on the money, note, i have a post office near my work, so ill be opening a a po box, after my paycheck clears (75% of that goes to rent this time!!! grr again!) so, ill keep you posted, if anyone still has a kind heart for donations toward the project. as you can see, alot of the fun stuff and video has been delayed due to lack of computer access. i have a series of partial nudes (i took them when i was depressed on saturday) im excited to put up, but i cant do that at kinkos (hey pervert..why are you editing PORN on our computers??) you know :)

stuff like that is just annoying. i get creative and i can only do so much. so, yes, computer is a top priority this month.

anyways, im going to take my lunch break

from Cisco

In case you needed further proof that the Human Race is doomed
through stupidity, here are some actual label instructions on
consumer products;
1. On a blanket from Taiwan -
NOT TO BE USED AS PROTECTION FROM A TORNADO.
2. On a helmet mounted mirror used by US cyclists -
REMEMBER, OBJECTS IN THE MIRROR ARE ACTUALLY BEHIND YOU.
3. On a Taiwanese shampoo -
USE REPEATEDLY FOR SEVERE DAMAGE.
4. On the bottle-top of a (UK) flavoured milk drink -
AFTER OPENING, KEEP UPRIGHT.
5. On a New Zealand insect spray -
THIS PRODUCT NOT TESTED ON ANIMALS.
6. In a US guide to setting up a new computer -
TO AVOID CONDENSATION FORMING, ALLOW THE BOXES TO WARM UP TO ROOM
TEMPERATURE BEFORE OPENING. (Sensible, but the instruction was
INSIDE the box.)
7. On a Japanese product used to relieve painful haemorrhoids -
LIE DOWN ON BED AND INSERT POSCOOL SLOWLY UP TO THE PROJECTED
PORTION LIKE A SWORD-GUARD INTO ANAL DUCT. WHILE INSERTING POSCOOL
FOR APPROXIMATELY 5 MINUTES, KEEP QUIET.
8. In some countries, on the bottom of Coke bottles -
OPEN OTHER END.
9. On a packet of Sunmaid raisins -
WHY NOT TRY TOSSING OVER YOUR FAVOURITE BREAKFAST CEREAL?
10. On a Sears hairdryer -
DO NOT USE WHILE SLEEPING.
11. On a bag of Fritos -
YOU COULD BE A WINNER! NO PURCHASE NECESSARY. DETAILS INSIDE. (The
shoplifter special!)
12. On a bar of Dial soap -
DIRECTIONS - USE LIKE REGULAR SOAP.
(And that would be how?)
13. On Tesco\'s Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom of the box) -
DO NOT TURN UPSIDE DOWN. (Too late! You lose!)
14. On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding -
PRODUCT WILL BE HOT AFTER HEATING.
(Are you sure? Let\'s experiment.)
15. On a Korean kitchen knife -
WARNING: KEEP OUT OF CHILDREN.
(Dammit! Who are they to tell me what to do with my kids?)
16. On a string of Chinese-made Christmas lights -FOR INDOOR OR OUTDOOR USE ONLY.
(As opposed to use in outer space?)
17. On a Japanese food processor -
NOT TO BE USED FOR THE OTHER USE.
(Now I\'m curious.)
18. On Sainsbury's peanuts -
WARNING - CONTAINS NUTS.
(Really? Peanuts contain nuts?)
19. On an American Airlines packet of nuts
INSTRUCTIONS - OPEN PACKET, EAT NUTS.
(I\'m glad they cleared that up.)
20. On a Swedish chainsaw -
DO NOT ATTEMPT TO STOP CHAIN WITH YOUR HANDS OR GENITALS.
(What kind of consumer phone-call led to this warning?)
21. On a child\'s superman costume -
WEARING OF THIS GARMENT DOES NOT ENABLE YOU TO FLY.
(That\'s right, destroy a universal childhood fantasy!)
22. On some frozen dinners:
SERVING SUGGESTION: DEFROST.
23. On a hotel provided shower cap in a box:
FITS ONE HEAD.
24. On packaging for a Rowenta iron:
DO NOT IRON CLOTHES ON BODY.
25. On Boot's "Children's" cough medicine:
DO NOT DRIVE CAR OR OPERATE MACHINERY.
26. On Nytol sleep aid:
WARNING: MAY CAUSE DROWSINESS.
(Duh!)

more on the hookups

my reply to the email i received, below..so scroll down and read then come up here..
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hee hee. i laughed out loud.
I think confusion is common among women. we are the ones that are usually the "chased" so its up to us to sorta decide if we want it or not. theres all this pressure to hook up...and then all the pressure not to hook up. then there's the "how will he see me?" questions...

i can answer for myself that im a rad girl, and if i wanna get it on, then thats that..
but i sometimes worry that the guy im getting it on with gets all the girls..so then no matter how much i want him, i dont want him to have me too...

its all so complicated.

--- AM wrote:
>
> Lisa,
>
> Your post helped me figure out a lingering puzzle.
> That "I'm fine with
> just cuddling" line has rarely worked for me.
> (Occasionally, I even
> believed what I was saying.) The response was
> typically excuses or general
> annoyance. Never did a girl say, "I'm confused and
> that would confuse me
> even more." Later, I sometimes got the real story.
> But, if she had
> expressed confusion, I would have taken the
> opportunity to try think for
> her. Yes. Men are pigs. Second thought, that is
> probably an insult to pigs.
>
> That realization deserves a "well, duh." Hey. I
> may be slow, but I do learn.
>
> xo
> A