September 27th, 2001


Ok, the date went SOOO well. So well that im scared for myself!!
He doesnt get off of work until 5:30, so I jumped on the train and went down one stop to meet him. Oh, and when he turned the corner. Yum! He such the mod Beatleboy: Sorta tighter black jeans, black silk shirt, black tie, and black velvet suit jacket. Mod shoes. Mod black hair. Oh and those blue eyes.
And here I am: windblown hair, black hoodie, jeans. We kissed ont he cheek and went treking off in search of food. To make a long story short, we ended up at this place called Koyote on 47th street. The outside of the building was red, warm and inviting. We got to talking and I thought we were going to miss the show. An hour and half blew by in 5 minutes. He told me a lot of stories about college and so many that I had ot ask when he graduated. 1997. With a birthday on Sept 11 that makes him what....26? Funny I know all this stuff about him but I have forgotten his last name and I dont know his age. I do know this is his first time living outside of Texas (hes from Austin). Been here since May.Anyway, we run to the show (The Full Monty) and make it there right on time. (It must have started late). I must say its an interesting first date to go watch half naked (And then fully naked) men dance and sing on stage. Toward the end of the first act, I had to do it. I slipped my arm under his. There was no way I could not avoid wrapping myself around that velvety arm. He touched my hand and I Was happy. Basically we sorta stayed liek that during the second act as well. He was a complete gent the whole night, which I really appreciated. We headed home right after the show,since it was 11:30 and we both had to work today. I had this feeling like I was going ot run into someone I knew. All of a sudden, from out of the crowd on the A train, some guy comes up and kisses me on the cheek....WIL!!! Wil says "I saw this hottie over here (Lance) and I knew that i recognized him...and then you were here (me) and here we are!" Randomness ont he A train. Wil was comingback from Scotts. HE left us at West 4th street.
Well, it was one stop before mine and there was that extreme deparing fromt he date tension. Subways are not a good place for this though, since you have to run off. So when the train slowed, we looked at each other very hard. The doors opened. I thought about dragging him out with me, and then i slapped my brain with a mature hand. We pecked each other on the lips and I ran out. "See you on Friday!" The doors closed. The train pulled away.

We are going to the Sparklehorse show in Williamsburg on Friday. How am I going to get through these next 2 days? Agony!!

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I am happy to be swamped with work today. Otherwise, I wouldnt be able to sit still in my chair! Went to lunch half an hour late because Dow Chemical in New Jersey REALLY wants 160kg of Adipic DiHydrazide on Monday. To do this on short notice, I had to call the trucking company (New Jersey Express) myself. The secretary asked me my requests and then attempted to communicate with her boss, or the dispatcher, or whoever "he" was. Suddenly she whispers to me "I cant stand him! This is it! Im so tired of this treatment! I dont know how much longer ill be here."
What was I supposed to say? This is not the kind of thing you talk with customers about!
"Sorry! I hope things go better!"
"Not likely" she says.
"Hmm....well, uh...I still need to know if you all can pick up from my warehouse today..."
"I think so" she says.
Lets hope so, or Dow will be annoyed on Monday. Oh gee, too bad I wont be here! Oh yes, Ill be in Ohio, sitting in a freezing cold booth, smiling at potential customers, in a borrowed gray suit jacket. This is the life. Or so it seems....

I keep thinking about that little kiss on the train. What nice lips. mmmm. I need more of that.


I have to be good on Friday. I decided this morning. A little making out is a must, otherwise, im going to die. But, im going to let him make the first move on anything more. Ive been doing all the work, so far. I picked him up. I moved to hold his arm. I guess he sorta initiated the kiss on the train. Im going to see how he does from here on out. I know ive not been pushing anything, due to my own strange shyness, and his comments. (When I asked him, all blushing, if he wanted to accompany me to the Sparklehorse show on Friday, he says "sure, although it wouldnt really matter what we were doing on Friday as long as I had your wonderful company...") But yeah. Im REALLY trying to make this good. I have feeling about it. But, i dont wanna talk. Im so used to things turning out not so great, or me losing interest, or something.
So, lets not think anymore about the future, and lets dwell on happy memories of last night. yes? YES!

Nong Shim noodles for Lunch and a snapple Rasberry Ice tea. dont usually like snapple, but this is ok. the noodles are one step above top ramen, but they are nice and spicy and everyone in the office is happy to see im eating something besides the crackers and cookies in the kitchen. I hate this radio station. I think im going to change it.

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im meeeting mel outside my building. the one day i didnt bring my camera with me!!
why does this ALWAYS happen???
grrrr. im so annoyed.
brain fried. i will have to stay late tomorrow, on my birthday. (growls again)