So, James is now not sure if he wants to go to Seattle or not. He was so gung ho about it just a week ago...like it was the best place for us (he wanted to leave ASAP), and now he's saying he needs to think about it..that maybe we should just find a place here. He's tired of floundering and wants to be in a place that will move him ahead in life. I completely respect that, but I feel like decisions need to be made NOW. I guess thats the way I am. I think of a plan and do it. I forget that people have different ways of dealing with life. It's oh so hard to align with others sometimes. Ah, the challenges of relationships. He asked me "what do you want?" I said what I want revolves around what he wants: if we stay here, im going to apply to Rutgers, NYU and columbia for the fall or next spring. I'll change jobs. If we go to Seattle, I'll apply to UW for the spring and find new job. Im not living around his life per se, since I can do what i want here or there, but I just want him to tell me where we are going to be! I think id save money, in the long run, in seattle, but im not unhappy here except for where his apt is and my current job. Ive really warmed up to the idea of moving there, especially since Mel and Jaylene are in nearby Portland. Ive done so much research and I even have received blessings from my dad who has offered to help us move across the country in October. We have everything we need...but i need my boyfriend to make a decision. I love him so. And every day more. But you all know how I dislike limbo.