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Apr. 17th, 2003

i dont know what to write about on this thing. about 8 billion people i personally know read this. if i write out my true thoughts on a lot of stuff, i end up pissing people off. i dont even know what the purpose is anymore. for instance, today i was going to write about something james said to me last night over a romantic sushi dinner that completely took me by surprise and hurt my feelings. ive been mulling over it all day and rethinking what i am to him in the relationship and such. i dont really want to get into it, but im hurting today, and i cant think of anyone to call, so im going to email some friends on the west coast. i know this journal is supposed to be like a private book of confessions, but it's just not.


Apr. 20th, 2003 05:18 pm (UTC)
That is the problem I have with LJ (or any paper journal) : if it's all public, someone might find out. If it's all private, well, my head is my private journal, no need to write all that down for me...

And so I don't write much in my journal. I think I'm going to try to write a little more on the tech part of my job, since I recently noticed I enjoy reading that stuff from other people. Maybe I'll go from there, but I don't think I could write as much as you do... as you say, i dont even know what the purpose is anymore. I don;t fully get that either. But here I am still... So what then? this ('communication' with others) perhaps? like a talking group about stuff (AA style ;-)?