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Jul. 1st, 2004

for some reason it pissed me off that James said he wasnt uncomfortable at all about meeting D on the phone just now. I mean, Im uncomfortable about them meeting. I think D is a little hesitant, as well. And Im a little weird about meeting James's new squeeze, Tiffany the 20 year old.

I must have been decieving myself when I thought we were as close as we were. He never fought for me once. Never. Even when I said goodbye, he just cried and gave up. And...I cant imagine that they ARENT having sex. And when he was "in love" with me, I couldnt get the time of day. Im just pissed about the talk without the follow through.
I dont think Im going to call him for awhile. I just need a clean break for a bit. no friends. just nothing. for a few weeks. months maybe. i dunno.

Im VERY happy with D. I'd never get back together with James, as this point. It's not about that, or being jealous. It's just I still feel like a doufus for really believing in that relationship. It makes is hard to trust what I have now. Sucks.


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Jul. 1st, 2004 01:52 pm (UTC)
wow, James has a young chick? How the Hell did he do that?? I'm still trying to figure out how he got you! : )

Take care...
Jul. 2nd, 2004 04:42 am (UTC)
Wait a minute; you DUMP the schmuck, is that right? Then, you're disapointed because he doesn't react in a manner YOU THINK is appropriate, AND he has the audacity to find another woman instead of joining a monastery or or perhaps the French Foreign Legion.

Men can be so cruel.

Jul. 2nd, 2004 06:59 am (UTC)
in case you were reading, which you obviously weren't....

"He never fought for me once. Never."

That's why Im upset. When you tell someone you are in love with them (which he did almost immediately and quite continuously throughout our relationship), you usually try to keep them around, even if they want to leave you. You want them in your life, and you do your best to try and fix whatever is broken. That's what I THINK is appropriate. I need to know that I'm worth fighting for. Otherwise, why waste 2 years living with someone? As I indicated, it's all bygones now and we're moving on.

I dont know anything about audacity or French Foreign Legions. Maybe you do?
Jul. 3rd, 2004 09:46 pm (UTC)
yes, i do.

ya know sometimes when ya get dumped you actually think that the dumper means it.
maybe next time you dump someone, you'll make sure you really want to dump someone. then if he "fights to get you back" you can call him a stalker.
Jul. 6th, 2004 12:44 pm (UTC)
Which part did you miss...
The part where he refused to sleep with her for six months and then it turned out he was cheating on her, or trying to, or the part where he couldn't stay employed and she was supporting him during this or...why don't you look at the larger picture here, that she felt used and like the relationship didn't matter to him, instead of nitpicking over the details that set that feeling off in her as of late?

You are dumb.
Jul. 7th, 2004 04:49 am (UTC)
the point is AFTER she dumped him she's upset becaues he didn't
react as one should who's been dumbed by Lisa! He didn't, fight for her.

My point is, what's the difference? He's dumped. It's over! Isn't it?

Jul. 3rd, 2004 12:49 am (UTC)
i know exactly what you mean. it's like oh were breaking up ok i'll come get my things tomorrow when you're not here.pooph it reduces a two year loving relationship into a 20 second conversation.it's like a stranger has stolen 2 years of your life.
Jul. 5th, 2004 08:15 pm (UTC)
Look at it this way, Tiffany gets to deal with all the shit you just got rid of, and how likely is it that James will treat her any differently than he treated you?

Won't she be the lucky one.
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