i kept waking up every few hours after that, which made me wonder if i should have answered the phone. it was 3am, then 4, then 5...and i considered getting up and going to the pool...and then i rememebred i live in the ghetto and the bus wouldnt come around forever, and id fall back asleep for another hour.
i took into consideration the comments on the last entry and i did a video confession, since it made me think. so, i wont go into all that in great detail other than to say, im attempting to upload some new pics tonight, and the confessions tomorrow. its hard juggling the time. i guess im going to zip to RMD after work, upload, and then zip back up here to swim...which puts me leaving the gym at around 8:30. getting home at 9:30. thats way to late to eat. theres simply not enough time after work for life!
i am feeling good today, even with the constant awakening last night. theres something to be said for sleep. i havent really been noticing how god awful ive been feeling after these nights of drinking and dragging to work. oh yes, ive complained, but i sorta got used to the misery. even though im sleepy, since it is 8:45 am, im feeling 1000000% better than those days i get 2 hours and call it good.
i wrote jeramy a nice little note (its read on last night's confesion). Trying to explain that im sorry for being such a bitch lately..and trying to explain why im being that way and what he can do not to irritate me...and how we should try and be more civil in passing and leave each others company before we start to argue. hes the only ex ive never gotten along with. i feel like a putz.