on a brighter food note, i finally managed to go grocery shopping last night, and purchased some much needed vegis...corn, frozen spinach, and fruit: cantaloupe, plums and banans. mmmmm, banans.
made dinner last night for myself too. for the first time in oh..2 months. cheese tortellini with red sauce and a side salad with lettuce, tomato, carrots and cheese..and some special Annies "Garlic Dressing" that i splurged on at D Agastinos. mmmmm. all this is in great detail, cause ive been living off of random old cheese sandwiches or nothing for dinner for awhile, so i decided i really needed to start taking care of myself. one of those things i need to concentrate on besides drinking. you know?
so yeah, made dinner and then i got a call from conrad. well, i called him..i suspected that the person who called me late at night (As it turned out not so late..12:30 and then again 5 minutes later, although it seemed later and farther spaced apart at the time) was him. you know. if you have sorta a good time on saturday, a good time to call is monday. so i suspected. we ended up talking or almost 3 hours. this is a big deal, since im not really a phone person, except with "Sin" (you may have met her in the chat room in oberlin) i used to talk with Sin all night..from 11pm to 5 or 6am. so strange. we just NEVER ran out of things to say, and when we tried to say goodbye at 3am, we'd end up talking until 5. i think both phone conversations had a few things in common. a crush. and also some intellectual conversation that made me think about my stance on some things. i think Sin's conversations were a bit more controversial and she tended to REALLY challenge me to the point of arguing. but yeah. Actually,the funny thing is that I accidentally had phone sex with her. im not sure how many people caught that. i thought the sound was off, cause we had been working on the system all day, and she also liked it when i had the sound off cause she felt like she could hear herself talking (she'd watch me and talk on the phone) well, we got into some pretty intense phone sex and i realized the next day, that the sound had been on the whole time! Yikers! hahaha
only one comment in the chat room about that one, and i guess i was sorta safe, being that it was 3 am and all. i just got an email from her today, actually. shes doing well out there in San Fran.
but anyways, back to the here and now, so to speak!!, i do have a new little crush. im going to be careful though. take it a little slow. and enjoy the process of it all.